blue-leaf

doctor doctor!

2006-05-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

went to watch "you are my sunshine" this movie with shu qin. we had to took the 9.30pm time slot since there was only two time slot that day. i guess not much people watching this movie, anyway the movie turns out to be touching. ha was crying while watching. really envy the female lead had such a loving husband. he is willing to take care and love her even though she was a prositute and had HIV in the end. the movie ended at around 12 i think, so it lasted for about two hour plus. had to go home by bus and ha i was stilll worried there might be no one. but!! there was still so much people at the shopping centre and some shops were still open. it would be cool if all of them were open, then can do midnight shopping. i always wanted to stay at orchard till midnight so can watch the night view over there. ahh!! excited ha ha . hope there was another chance to stay even longer there. can enjoy the quietness and darkness at night. was suppose to go with wanting and ask about the driving lessons and go karen house to do hair treatment. but was rather rush cause she had to go home by 2 then i was thinking forget it let go another day. then went to see a doctor instead, cause had it drag for almost two weeks. in the end still had to go see a doc! waste money sia. haiz... so wanted to study my nr or either renal quiz, but was knock out after eating the medication! paiseh not my fault. so drag until and still haven start. gonna to watch my show later sia! aniway ha ha going to watch it now! its the last episode! wah ha ha ha ....

must really work hard!

2006-05-09T01:00:00.000-07:00

its the second day of a week. waiting for the arrival of friday. did not went to school today! i pon school! ha cause very tired some more i will not even listen what the teacher is talking about. so what the point of going. rather stay at home and study. currenltly reading immunology notes for thur quiz. now everyweek there is quiz or either test. in some way i think it is a good thing at least it will make me study and flip throught the notes. but i just seems to get anything in my head. sigh... time flies now really year two already. no more honeymoon period. must really workhard. sigh....

boring!

2006-05-04T07:11:00.000-07:00

ahhh.... projects and projects! so now i am having projects every week both of them. so long never blog dunno what to write also! aniway, studying my NSL quiz in progress. really don have the mood to study. so boring, always ask us to read about those weird weird AAP stuffs althought we are meant to know, ha but that subjects is just not my cup of tea! sianz... want to learn driving leh but like go no time!

log book

2006-01-21T03:33:00.000-08:00

k the damn thing happening in my life.
i was bathing half way and dunno how come i realise i left my stupid irritaint log book in the hospital. than i will have to wake up early just to take that log book! faint.. why am i so dumb to place it at the nursing counter!! why why tell me why! ahh.. faint!

e zuo ju zhi wen 17

2006-01-21T02:33:00.000-08:00

just finish watching e zuo ju zhi wen episode 17!
my god the show is damn damn damn nice! but xiang qin very poor thing. can't wait for episode 18 to come out! and when will tat be its so long! ahh why like tat have to wait until monday! but luckily is one week one episode or else i will faint DLing the shows. ho ho ho. i wonder in this world got such people like jiang zhi shu. ha ha!!! nice show! can't wait for the VCD to come out! can't wait can't wait! why can't it come out now! and its now!
start raining again, now adays always sunny then raining than raining and sunny again. weird weather. i have also finish watching zhong ji yi ban episode 8 waiting for nine to come out also! sianz... hate DLing shows. if only i stay in taiwan than i would not have to waste my time DLing them. my god! why is singapore so sad! can't they buy more nicer shows frmo other countries. the entertaintment shows also not funny de. some more nothing new also. boring!

2006-01-20T19:40:00.000-08:00

gonna to be afternoon soon. and i haven complete any of my project. going out tomorrow and trying to finish everything before school start. ya i know i am rushing work at the last minutes. trying to find information to pass to anis, at least i want to contribute something to the project or it will be unfair to the others.
feeling very sleepy now. i guess its because i slept very late yesterday. was changing my blog skin just now. finally complete it. always giving me stupid troubles. eg. for the skin i have to republish two times than can. my god~ aniway trying to finish my 5 mins presentation for CITS today. the topic i have choose should be doing cosmectic surgery ha ha .. sound interesting. should be quite nice la. than for CMBIO, doing a rather weird topic. its on vegetarian cheese, went to read up something on it. is something like rennet is added inside to make the cheese so its not meant for vegetarian to eat. and rennet is enzymes inside the calf stomach. so is sort of make from animal product. argh.. quite dumb la.
dunno why the teachers always ask ur to do weird stuff.
very looking forward to kunming trip. wondering if i am able to go. sigh...
aniway gonna to do my presentation!

last day attachment!

2006-01-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

last day of attachment le. kind of bu she de to leave the place. is more of the patient there especially the one that is newly admitted. ya the one which i mention abt. the 80 plus grand uncle. ha ha ... he so damn cute! he was eating rice and fish today. the way he chew is damn damn cute, i guess is cause he doesn't haf any teeth with him. oh ya, he asked for kopi at around 7 plus, but i dunno what that so i gave him kopi 0. eh.... faint! i am so stupid. so i haf to ask the nursing officer what the difference! than went to the pantry to add some milk. and he ate it with the kopi! just feel very happy seeing him eats! realli hope to see him again!!! but his language i really don understand! totaly not except for some easy easy one. i wonder how is he now! missing him.. sigh...
if only the attachment was one more week longer. i don mind actually just to see the uncle. oh ya the bed 7 also going to discharge le. than bed 16 uncle wonder how is he and bed 21 ha ha alway ask me to put diapers for him cause later at night he very ma fun to go toilet. hur hur... i just came to realise actually being a nurse is not as bad as i think. but i hope to work in bigger and more hectic hospital like SGH, NUH! i guess that will be more fun lor. going to be two plus le! very sleepY! sigh... seriously i rather go out on sat than on sun lor. haiz... like tat at least sun can stay at home. dunno if i want to go out a not. sianzX... going to sleep le realli cannot tahan anymore.

second last day~

2006-01-19T07:33:00.000-08:00

three weeks woo... flies pass!
attachment gonna to finish, tomorrow is the last day. quite enjoying attachment now not like last time. everyday go there feel like dying or going to jail. ha ha i guess is because the staff there are more friendly. at least they bother to ask u to do some things! ya. hmm... saw one medical student very shuai~ oh ya one more! my fren doctor miss siti aisha!!!! DOctor POH! hear her mentioning him almost more than 30 times a day! than she will start smiling to herself and the eyes follow whenever he go! oh ya, she was still telling me the encouter with him. ha ha poor me have to listen to her, but of course feel happy for her also! her DOCTOR POH!! ahh... faint...
i almost wanted to faint!ha ha ya la he shuai when he smile la! my god!~~~
hmm... still haven finish on my stupid 5 mins presentation~ not sure what i should write.
Boring hate school. soon going to have exams soon~ haiz...
i am still wondering if i should be bonded to any hospital. in this way, can save money than when passing out also gurantee got job. but i am afraid if i am able to pass all my tests.
aniway, life is like this full of contradiction. haiz... i am already worrying if i am able to pass my 3 months probation!!! pathetic~ nurse why am i a nurse? why why why?!!!
today attachment quite slack, not realli doing anything except for some parameters, than feed one patient, help Doc POH take ice for dunno what vlood investigation, bring patrient to toilet and nothing else~ er... sounds pathetic~ ha ha i learn something about nebuliser~ aniway, there was this newly admitted i think should be more than 80 ba keep on asking abuot his 6o dollars! he wrote on a paper saying he wanted the money. this goes on almost for like one hour until finally the nursing officers came over to talk to him than ask a nurse to write that his money is in a saver will return to him when he discharge! i almost want to fainT~!!! after such a long time than he understand! then some more the language is hakka which i don even know how to speak! ahh... faint! then after that let him sleep, he wanted a pillow ha ha so had to get from another bed cause the uncle dunno disapper to where! oh ya than he was smiling already! very cute! ha ha .... good that can see him again tomorrow!

2006!~

2005-12-31T09:44:00.000-08:00

its 2006. *waving goodbye to 2005.
new year resolution! haven thought of any yet. always pass day by days.
neber plan anything ahead of time. cause i knew i will never complete them.
so what the point of planning! this is just how i pass my life! boring day staying at home.
stupid computer doesn't allow me to watch shows. WTH!
argh... never mind!

saturday blues!

2005-12-17T08:00:00.000-08:00

common test is over, and two weeks holiday is coming. i predict that this holiday is going to be a boring one... dunno what can i do during the two weeks. was just wondering if they say secondary school frens are the longest fren u are going to contact.. but i doubt so sometimes. even if contact but u have nothing much to talk abt will there be contact always? i don think so. sometimes when i see my secondary school fren online don even haf anything to talk to them. this include good frens also. u can't possibily complain to them or talk rot everyday. is this call life? i am not sure either. very sleepy today, woke up early for S and W to do something i think quite fun or rather interesting. we were suppose to sit around the field for a human dominer. ya watever how u spell it. ya then suppose to "fall" on one another. went out with poly frens to eat and shop shop awhile. oh god they went to eat KFC ho ho ho... regret so went home to jog on the spot for half any hour and done 50 sits up. gonna to do again tomorrow. i must slim down... my aim aim aim !!!

Pharmacology paper!

2005-12-13T02:46:00.000-08:00

Another paper over, which makes it two now. Next two papaer will be thursday, I just realise that there is alot to study for pharmacology. Should have start earlier rather than take a nap ha ha ha .... alot of things to memorise too. sigh... wanted to watch chicken little alone today, but was too sleepy so lazy to go ho ho... listening to some songs i have just found.. hmm... got take some from zx also.. ah ha quite sick of studying. Thinking of going back to attachment makes me want to faint already, but this time there will be more things to be done as much more things are being learn this time. hmm.... wondering if there is any intresting thing going to happen, ha ha i rem that time me and sharon saw this very shaui de medical student ho ho.... paiseh too early to fa hua chi at this moment. shall continue to study again! jia you jia you jia you!

FON common test

2005-12-12T08:05:00.000-08:00

its already midnight i doubt i can finish my revision before two... should have start earlier and don play along with i am with my revision. i was wondering if watching movie alone will feel very weird, but i am sure gonna to try it one day. i guess its better to watch it alone then with frens, as when and where u can just go and buy a ticket when u feel like watching a movie. don have to wait here and there. its just so troublesome... and more over u don haf to rely on ur frens to watch a movie maybe ur fren doesn't even want to watch.oh freak, i just release i forget to watch project runway. its like how mani thousand time i haf miss that show. argh..... when will i rem to watch it. now currently revising pre and pos ops! coughing like hell .... still haven recover, guess its cause i never take the medication. ya no choice cause its causes drowsiness! not my fault for not eating it! or else it makes me slp how am i going to study man! ahh.. i am very sleepy now! this blog time doesn';t allow me to alter the time i post on my blog weird thing~ never mind its alright. ha ha shall change another skin some time after my common test! ho ho ho ....

again and again...

2005-12-12T06:11:00.000-08:00

again the same old thing happen, they went to watch chicken little without asking me. ya i rem i told ah ma i am watching with others. but she also nkow i never get to watch. the thing i don understand is why am i always the last to know everything that happens. i am being too stupid to bother abt such things. realli very stupid. that time the initial D also same thing happen, and up till now i stil haven watch the movie... i know things long past ago no one should rem it cause it such minor things. dunno what to say, ah ma will always change the time or place because xinrui cannot ya she have something on, then why can't they wait for my common test to finish then watch it together. i dunno.. i always wonder do i have this good frens or i don? or izzit they are not the one.. i duno... its hard to explain... sigh....

projects!!!

2005-12-12T01:49:00.000-08:00

finally CMBIO is over, left FON pharmacology and NSL and i am free. three more three more three more! hooray. studying FOn now, hopefully nothing goes wrong. and hope its a easy paoper also! wah ha ha ha .... jia yo jia you! three more paper! then i am free! quick quick let all this end faster! wah ha ha ha.... today paper still alright la but i make some stupid carelses mistakes by not reading the paper carefully oh god! sigh... there goes my marks! but hopefully i don retake the paper! then i will be grateful but there will be alot of projects cmoing up sigh..

eho ho... movie partner!

2005-12-11T01:10:00.000-08:00

here i am again blogging. just trying to be a lamer. still studying the same old subject heh heh. bo bian, cannot concentrate so always at the same topic. but now revising already. wohooo.... now head abit gong gong.. RNA, mRNA, tRNA, my god all about genetics! still don understand why am i studying all this. is like nothing to do with nursing... oh god! i am crazy its alright! aniway ha ha how i wish i have a movie partner, then can watch with me all sort of movies... sigh... but i think its not easy to find one. aniway i going to study le just cvome here to crap onli!

looking forward to christmas!

2005-12-11T00:06:00.000-08:00

hmm... finally common test is tomorrow, still trying very hard to memorise everything for tomorrow. jia you jia you. thought of suggestion a class gathering again cause the last two time did not realli succedd. so this time, thought of having another one, but this time after much thinking can't be bother to ask le. cause they don seems to be keen about it after all then why bother to zhi tao ku chi. agree on this term... aniway CMBIO realli don udnerstand what the teacher talking about for the last chapter. sigh.... trying to understand .... aniway again i am gonig to say this christams is coming!!! ha ha ....

life is just like that!

2005-12-10T03:26:00.000-08:00

common test is coming. and i am still one quater way studying. completely don understand what the teacher is talking about for the last lessons. so how the hell am i going to study for it? memorisesing? my god! hate it. boring. still trying very hard to get everything into my head. looking forwards to the dates when i get to enjoy the holiday. very qi tai. ha ha ... want to watch movies those long long time ago one and i never get the chance to watch. going to rent them! must hao hao xiang shou yi xia. then that is what i call life. chritsmas is coming and this is the third time i have been saying it. wonderng how is everyone going to celebrate it. some with the other partners, other with families or frens. hmm.. i must start thinking how to spent it also. maybe call karen they all out! horray! wodnering how are they now. so long never see them le. althought is like 4 days onli but it seems weeks ha ha .. thinking too much. sometimes i realli appreciate to have a life of this. dunno how to say also.dunno leh althought my results always not very good. from primary school until now, always last minute choose this choose that but in the end its turn out well also. just like the course i am in now. althought its not like a very great course, but at elast i know when i come out i might be able to secure a job i think. secondary school also, its a new school but after all i am still here in ngee ann. sometimes i think my life is rather smooth ha ha ... think too much already! ho ho ho ... shall start studying again!

holiday holiday!!!

2005-12-08T05:11:00.000-08:00

practical test is finally over, lucky for me i never get michael. something worth to celebrate. ha ha keep on praying in the exam place never shall i get him! my god! so lucky, hmm... so now must concentrate to study for my common test le... studying in progress!!! looking forwards towards holiday!

jia you!

2005-12-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

ahh.... after so long i still dunno how to do my stupid journal. i am trying very hard le. but still dunno what show can i include inside the journal. my god! ahh.... want to cry le! stress stress! i very scared i am gonna to fail this paper. sigh.... my god what am i going to do man! jia you jia you jia you!

good luck for nr!

2005-12-06T01:50:00.000-08:00

i am still doing my stupid journal, headache. dunno how to start and dunno how to continue. another big news came, gonna to have my nursing skills practical nurse on this thursday. unfortunately, our class is going to have teachers to test on us. One of them is extremely strict some of my frens had been tested by him before. isn't it a bad thing? our grp is going to be the first grp to be tested on the very first day of the test. my god! qing tian bi li. sad sad. stress ah. and i still haven start studying my stupid common test which is like next week. so by all means i have to completet my journal now!!!! aniway i am going to do le haiz.. wish myself good luck!

NR sucks!

2005-12-05T08:49:00.000-08:00

stress stress stress. common test is next week and i haven seems to start any of my revision. still in a holiday mood now. trying to start on my NR research and finally i am getting my hand on this dumb journal. still have to answer question like how do i feel abt learning NR? is like what the hell? i feel that i never learn anything, but i could not possibly write inside right? oh god. is like lying to urself and to the teacher also. so fake. one lucky thing is at least i finish my SAWI journal. heave a sigh of relief. a pat on my own shoulder. ah ma is having her retest tomorrow, wishing her good luck here. ho ho... worst of all i am still watching VCD when i am suppose to get down to work, ahh.. so bad of me... hopless!!! nothing to say! hur hur... feel like sleeping now... so sad.... but was hoping at least complete half of it. still deciding if i want to go for tomorrow IG sport camp. oh god! haiz..... what should i do? stress stress! and there is like 4 projects coming up to be presented! ahh.................................. forget it go and do my dumb journal now!

frens in poly! my god

2005-12-03T06:32:00.000-08:00

feel like rushing to the sea to shout out loud. vent all my frustration there, then i wil feel much better. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............................freaking out! trying very hard to make myself calm down... trying trying trying very hard!!! poly life is after all not as nice as i think. guess is what kind of frens u meet there! unfortunate me! sigh... how to survive for another two and a half yrs! feel like dying! actualli i also dunno if my seconday close frens are realy my close frens. is like sometimes the things they know i dunno. ahh.. dunno i guess i am just over sensitive over certain things. and now i am stressing over how to complete my common test and i haven start mugging for my damn upcoming common test. no mood to study. suddenly so mani journal come up. sianz..... hate it.... poly life sucks. especially u are not actively participating in things. my god! lame.....

tennis training

2005-12-02T07:24:00.000-08:00

went for dental today and as usual done the same procedure. noting much everything is the same. and obviously i have change another colour. this time is something like greenish blue. which they call is tercoil(i know its not spell this way) aH HA... then went for tennis training. having depression there, cause could not hit back the tennis ball and training was like i have deprove alot.... haiz.... dunno how to describe. and i also miss thursday inline skating training. don feel like going. have no idea why. just find that its not as fun as last time. guess its the peope there and the training there. seems like learning nothing everytime i go. worst thing is i pay the club fees for like 3 yrs so if i don go will be wasting my money. if i know, should have pay for one year only. ahh..... puke blood. regret!!!! aniway, still having problem with my nursing research journal. haven no idea how should i start not to mention find information! depression!!!

common test

2005-12-01T18:21:00.000-08:00

yoyo....long long time never start. its the second day of december. welcome december. this means christmas is coming! finally almost going to complete my SAWI journal. another headache! NR journal. the marks is included 50 percent of the whole common test. which means yes i am going to fail this module. i am damn sure about it. actualli also not much to blog about. just quite wu liao onli. ha ha .....

modules

2005-11-08T00:02:00.000-08:00

pass one week
second week has arrived, time realli flies. its already nov. soon christmas is coming too.
new modules today! creativity. wasn't realli enjoying it. overly stress by this module! have to do individual presentation! worried.... oh ya and the question my teacher gave is like all i can't realli answer. this make me ponders if my IQ is realli lower than other people or am i really very stupid... sigh.....reflection journal has to be written also! ahh......
then here comes the worst of the worst nursing research module. is either the teacher pronounciation something wrong or realli too deep for me to understand or i completely don realli quite get what she is trying to convey. nvm. its alright. ha ha
oh ya... then CMB also makes me want to puke! bio stuffs. almost felt asleep as the lecturer was talking but lucky other course people came over to give a little presentatino about this Vpost thing. gonna to go to see the roadshow. then my another lecturer was talking about the np open house which is next year. sign up for it.
was trying hard to convince my frens to go. ahh... wondering how come they are not so ON de. everything also never join...sigh...poly life!!! is meant to be fun actually but its seems boring to me now! oh ya i also join in the road show thing for next year also!
and only me and another fren is joining! argh...... boring!
hmm.... gonna to slp soon. buai buai!

something to say

2005-10-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

hmm.....never been posting for a long time. cause don feel like. anywhere i doubt anyone bother whether if i post a not. aniway maybe i was being too sensitive or what la. but i just find that somehow i feel i am not very close to this fren. is like another fren write her a testimonial she will reply but if i write for her she will just accept eh? maybe i am just thinking too much. dunno leh.

aniway, went out today. morning went to see mr harpal, west spring sec school principal. he leaving cause finish his task at our school after four yrs. jumping to another sec school. actualli i wasn't realli bother if he is leaving or not, but after seeing him today. still realise after all he is still a very good principal at least he manage the school well enough. i guess. yea he did. then saw the new principal. and other teachers. wahahahaha mr khoo table is still as messy as ever no difference, then mr rudie still the same old few sentence. except that his camera spoilt so he can't take any more pictures. hur hur..... then the rest of the teachers still the same. wohoo.. something to mention! ha ha zhang lao shi still very skinny after giving birth.

then went orchard with karen, xinrui, ailing, wanting and weifen. went to eat sushi. buffet!!! suppose to be on diet! hur hur...... anyway never buy anything boring... seriously i don like going shopping without buying anything! guess what cause everything cause a bomb! is nice meeting up sometimes in a while. saw the rest of the classmates also hur hur.... but didn't realli talk to them. got nothing to ha la about. guess i my ren yuan not tat good. just discover wo lai lai qu qu like onli got a few frens. but sometimes isn't that good? dunno.... but sometimes facing jakx sometimes it give me a feeling that they seems so close and good to u but yet so far. is like sometimes i feel very lonely also... hmm...... dunno why i feel this way also. i always know they very ren rang wo.... i know that. hur hur... is always a blessing know them... ha ha . oh yea after all ha ha still haven buy xinrui and ailing birthday present ahh......i don even know what i should buy! is like i very heartless pass so long already!

oh yea was watching today channel 8 show. then talking about this couple with a few kids. two of them commit sucide and two got mental problem including the wife. staying in 3 room flat arh. not sure what room... then i realise is like in this world don always think u are very poor thing sometimes don have what others have! actualli u own alot more than others. just that u never know. my mother always tell me, if u can own something which u don realli need it but give the money to someone who realli needs it, why not give to the person which a little money maybe can last his living to maybe 3 to 5 days? and make his or her life less xing ku... ha ha this is something i ling wu today.

oh yea. realli have no idea why my mood now very irritated and sad... hur hur. maybe having PMS! who knoes. aniway finish blogging already! see ya next time! hur hur!

shuai ge!

2005-09-13T23:17:00.000-07:00

hooray!
i finish my pathetic AAP exams
one more paper to go! wohoo.... wish me good luck man
was watching qing ding ai qing hai today. the last episode so sad. haiz.. the guy died and the girl was alone. wondering how come nowadays they always gif this kind of show. even the tian tang de jie ti also like tat! QUAN XIANG YU CHAO SHUAI!!!
my god especially when u see him wear the suit!! gosh.....fall in love! ha ha fa hua chi again.
aniway trying to study PAs now. but u know there is always a lot of distration, like hp, tv and computer. hur hur.....
test is onli fri so can slack a bit. hope and pray hard that my AAP pass. by hook or by crook or else have to repeat half a year with the newbies. throw face. next smesester got 8 modules can puke blood. but some seems interesting. aniway realli have to study alreadY hur hur.....

QUAN XIANG YU!!!!!!

2005-09-13T01:13:00.000-07:00

guess what???
the time is like 1am plus and i am having exams later! still not sleeping yet hur hur...
cause i haven finish studying, was dragging like hell. more into korean drama so went to watch stairway to heaven and ever since we met..
then in the end went to search for their vcd online.
sianz...finally one paper has past. and it decreases my morality rather than boast it. cause is like got some realli never even read before so just anyhow hala! ha ha
i am more afraid of AAp actualli. cause i realli hate biology and now i am going to deal with it later. as in cause tmorrow got the exams. yea friday will be the last paper! hooray. still waiting!
yea later got stairway to heaven.
korean show is onli my motivation to look forward to the nxt day
sigh.. just now went to see friendster saw someone actualli got gf so sad ha ha

pimples sucks!

2005-09-10T15:19:00.000-07:00

now studying FON! two more days and the exams are coming. hooray. then my attachment will start! izzit that a joy? (like real)
so boring to study everyday. can;t there be any newer things to be done?
sigh... yesteryday miss my favourite show. piss of!
aniway haiz.. anyone can recommand any skin care products that can get rid of pimples? ahh....

AAP!!! FON!!! MIC!!!

2005-09-10T00:35:00.000-07:00

freak freak freak
still studying at this moment althought seems like i am slacking thought
studying MIc now. was rather freak out by AAP! a dozen of things to be memorise and guess what i miss my favourite show!!! guess guess guess
don understand how come as nurse must study so much thing!!!!! freak
haiz..
sometimes realli can't be nother to study (just joking)
study alone very boring leh! haiz...

fortunate i am!

2005-09-02T01:20:00.000-07:00

here comes weekend...
which means my practical and retest are over. kinda find the lecturers here very kind. they always try all sort of way to help u pass ur exams and test. unless if u never help urself. i saw my result for practical! heh heh.. but still there is people fail...
reali wondering what going on with them.
today the MCQ teacher actually do for us. which means is an give away 10 marks. can u believe such things actualli exist in this world? ha ha
maybe they are trying very hard for us not to retain for half a yr just now repeat the module
was watching channel U news.
saw that parts of america was it by natural diesase. more than 40 000 people were homeless. and no food and water available. and thinking now i am here blogging... and everything is at home. wondering how are they people now.. sigh....
hopefully, the help from singapore can do to help them i guess. if onli other countries chip in to help also.
maybe they might recover faster. even hospital also haiz.....

i always realise how fortunate i am when i look at news.

hmm...going to AH for attachment..... when there before. heh heh....
wondering what is going to be like when i am there. let hope everything is alright.
feel like going back to st luke to see the granny. i still rem what she says!!! miss her... ha ha
trying to study AAP hoping at elast something let into my stupid brain~~~~

piss of~

2005-08-30T19:33:00.000-07:00

something stupid happen today
my fren confronted another fren... and is like i am rather piss of my the one who confronted anyone
is like... they were suppose to do a report after this project. so is like... how should i put it. it meant to be a reflective report. then my fren worte something about someone always assume she is correct... and so on..
then while handling this report to the teacher i guess she all the reports. so she wasn't very happy with my fren for what she write.
but is damn pathetic. does she know what a reflective report? the lect say is a personal thing and is like is alraedy her wrong for reading it... can't stand her. aniway i also kind of agree with what she say..
aniway... dunno what to say..
funni pple!

lame lame lame

2005-08-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

didn't go hip hop dance today
can't be bother to see the teacher. can't stand his attidue. one day if i happen to be taught by him again i will sure complain bout him! definetly...
restest is next fri. ha ha ... guess the teacher help us alot. 10 MCQ and the certain topic to study. so good of him.
thur is AAP practical and tue will be NSL practial test.
was watching the nurse show again.
felt like i am thinking too much sometimes.
ha ha .... i always thing what if i do something wrong and cause the death of a patient? and maybe the family members might come after me? maybe i might see something?
giving my self too much stress.... ha ha study stress this topic in psychology..
hmm...
so boring.... even practical itself had so much things to be known.
felt like giving up soon. but i know if others can do it i can also.
give myself a test here.
bones- zygomatic, sphenoid, frontal, occipital, parietal, lacrimal, ethmoid, temporal, nasal, vomer, maxillary, mandible, inferior nasal concha, palatine
body- femur, tibia, fibula, scapula, patella, metalcarpal, ulner, radius,

never mind i am acting lame.. something to worth celebrate is our grp finish our project and left onli presenting!

study study study!

2005-08-20T15:50:00.000-07:00

times realli flies, looking back its august now
having exams in two weeks time. and i not even starting yet. thus i am being a good girl studying now. projects are almost done left one more to be completed. then it willl be out clinical attachment. hm...
love this week cca ! of course i am referring to in line skating. we were playing basket ball with skates~ damn fun.. ha ha president name it roller ball or whatever la can't rem. aniway the game was extremely nice get to participate in it. wah ha ha ha ... but the girls was like screaming here and there cause ha ha .... u know u know.. hmm....
then it was tennis. was prepared and toook everything down.. guess what! no tennis! practise.! wah seh almost want to puke blood! thought can go cause i never go last week heh heh..
so went to eat dinner with mother! guess where it was? pizza hut! of course! i order a garden salad, garlic bread, personal pan pizza, ice lemon tea and a spagethie. but of course not i eat everything la. wah seh even talk of it now make my saliva drool.
hmm.. oh ya i want to change my phone! sigh....
w800i! iam coming for you~ the colour is orange and the outer look damn nice with a lot of featuers if onli i can buy heh heh...
maybe can try trading in hoho.
and now i am still studying mic while listening to songs.. sigh... guess it take some hard work to get high scores! jia you ba! everyone eventually have to go throught this hur hur...

father birthday! happy belated!

2005-08-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

hooray...
finish one project and going to present it later at 12pm
haha cause is like is already 1am now shitsss and i am still nt sleeping. as usual the night cat!
aniway just finish writing my script. those things i have to say tomorrow. hoho
first time complete it so fast
la la la
aniway boring gonna to slp soon haha
or else going to be a panda again
la la la la
just got scolded by my mothyer just now guess what? cause i on the speaker too loud
she always insists tat i am disturbing others..
aniway, today i very irritated by someone...
told her already still say i never say
some more share with her a lab coat
in the end she never wash than pass it to me! worst of all she never tell me is not wash!
freaking irritated by her
see her want to freak out is like damn irresponsible! ahh.. don waste my brain cells!
ya then my mother keep on telling me ya she don have her parents here so we must treat her better! but then hor! i realli cannot tolerate this! is damn irritatied! never wash then still can pass to me without even telling me lor! wah koaz! what kind of logic is that? freak out ! totoally freaking out! very very very
cool down! cool down! never mind! haha....
father birthday just passed! still want to wish him a happy birthday here! haha ... old arleady! wohoo....

irritated!

2005-08-14T22:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just don realli see the point in going to school..
just to go there to see people i don want to see...
boring.... which i was back in secondary school..
totally freaking out now...
anyway watever!

life in poly....

2005-08-08T00:39:00.000-07:00

finally i am blogging
currently chasing stars in progres. damn high seeing wu yue tian. remind me of wanting saying no need to eat estacy and u will be very high.. woohooo...
sadness in me when i am blogging
not sure.... too.....just realised not only i feel this way
is either i am hard to get along or what i dunno.. or i just see everyone bu shun yan...
i starting to hate myself now. the way i behave.. the way i am reacting
i hate poly life too...everything is so fake....
i don understand why
is like this applies to me too... like what wanting told me u have to fu yan everyone.... putting on a mask to school...
someone tells u something all u haf to do is smile smile give a little expression and that is done. i am doing that... yea frens are like this?
u seems very good with tat person but still u are some how complaning to another person about him or her?
this applies to me! i am such a hyprocite.
is like u dislike people to do this and back stab other people
and yet i am doing this..
is such contraditing...
i hate myself now!!! am i worth being a fren?
happiness in poly life? i don think so~ pretend to be happy i think.
how am i going tolerate in like 3 yrs? i dunno.... maybe i shouldn't even know!!!
i dunno.... i don want to know.... never.... ever.....

frens???

2005-07-27T06:08:00.000-07:00

boring boring boring
finally its the third day at polyclinic, worst still i was half an hour late yesterday. i am starting unable to stand my frens. ahh... i think we each can't stand one another also. the first thing u hear from them is this word TIRED! and i am going to hate this word. they forever want to do is just slack and is like i think no bother want to ask question la. then is like we go there as if we learn nothing lor. haiz... i also dunno how to say. just dislike my poly frens some la. they seems so sacastic sometimes. then got another fren always scared of something they are not suppose to be scared of! is like so pathetic. some more she is suppose to plan the schedule then is like we did la. but normally we never realli stay very long inside a room then just awhile then went off le. i very hard to explain la haiz... just dislike them la.
the two most things can hear is hungary and tired! don they have others things to say? my god i kind of sick of these two words le! and is very! dunno ba maybe just hard to get along i guess...

st luke ! i love it!

2005-07-18T21:24:00.000-07:00

my first clinical attachment~
at st luke hospital for the elderly! wooho...love it man
its fun! haha... get to get hand on experience in changing diapers and do parameters! althought wasn't realli getting use to it at first but some how its still alright!
oh ya then i know this elderly lady who was about 70 plus! haha... check with her for 15 minutes.. make her feel happy i guess
at least i now enjoy the feeling of working as a nurse when she told me to jia you. u realli feel warmth inside. is the kind of feeling u never get if working some where else. something u get in reward after going there for attachment especially the first time. and the assistant nurse there are very kind to us. they teacher us one by one and show us all the things to be done! i might consider to work there after i graduate since its is also near by house haha. just take a bus and can reach there already! woohoo....
i guess i will never forget the auntie!

my first ever clinical attachment

2005-07-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

movie!

2005-07-14T00:02:00.000-07:00

hooray finally went to watch a movie! u know movie!
went to watch WAR OF THE WORLD
and is like i don realli understand the show. cause i haf no idea why the alien die
yea is damn freaking annoying when i don understand waht the movie trying to show? haha

F! AAP!

2005-07-12T15:35:00.000-07:00

shh....
never study for my AAP! in the end get a F! deserve it! sigh.....l
wonder how am i going to tell my mother. k watever, she will know it anyway.
went to eat tim sum with my grandmother! wahahaha... she treat! so eat more... my grandmother still bluff me never bring wallet. haha i told her at most i leave her there to wash the dishses while i go home! ah ha~
funny old granny!
heheh......
aniway... so bored! shall study my AAP during the holidays if not if i fail AAP during exams that the end of me! ahh............
save me anyone! haha

timing!

2005-07-12T11:13:00.000-07:00

yea finally have the chance to go watch initial D. i hope so. haha maybe weifen might last min no time then i sure bang my head against the wall.
later going out with wanting that woman wants to change her cardigan haha...
hmm... mother is buying food back for me yum yum...
heh heh....

hate~

2005-07-10T23:00:00.000-07:00

ya so i have to watch the damn show alone tomorrow...
is like so dumb~ haiz.... might watch the eleven plus one or else also no choice
i am still irritated by the matter. very and is very! no one knows aniway!
sometime i don even know what are frens for... they sucks~~~~ ralli to the core!

heh heh.....

2005-07-10T10:55:00.000-07:00

just woke up haven even brush my teeth
listening to fan wei qi song.. nice nice! very meaniningfun....
damn bored wondering if i should go to that dumb energy autograph session. can't be bother to go rather stay at home. haiz....
maybe should study for exam already haha... must do well this time....
not sure if i should go ah ma house... cause....... haha... rotting at home now feel like watching a movie but very bored heh heh....

B! FON!

2005-07-10T01:13:00.000-07:00

yea got a B for my funamentals of nursing! congrat me? haha....

initial D

2005-07-10T00:41:00.000-07:00

wohoo....today is energy concert and i never go haha and i am still so high
dunno leh no sadness even thought i never go.... haha guess because i went out with two very good frens so no sadness for me leh....
today was a wonderful day! damn tired walk the whole day
went to west spring today. join the alumni...haiz... like waste money.. i join cause of the alumni t-shirt. can't realli be bother about the events.
damn boring when talking about the agenda. things went to slow. so can't be bother left after like one hour. and many there is still things not finish dicuss yet...
k watever about the alumni
yea then the three musketeers when to wheelck cause ah ma wants to see crumpleerrr bag but in the end also never buy. ah ha! lame.....
then walking walking half way... saw the initial D movie thing cause hanging all around the lamp post. eh....
ya then i was still wondering how to tell ah ma and xinrui i want to watch with frens then maybe they can watch first. in the end turn out they already watch... is like neber even ask me along....
is like they always do things themselves then i always or forever the last one to be known... yea so they never ask me is cause i got common test. i thought we alreay say watch after my common test...yea right? so like this if i not watching with my fren so i have to watch alone? at that damn point of time i am very irritated! very and is very! ya but i never say anything... cause is like since they don care about it why should i bother? getting sad over such stupid things? no point right? and some more must maintain my attidue! don get angry so fast. i mean is like since i am always not involve in things then how come is always me? and i am always the last one to know? tat dumb! i rem once i read from someone blog they went somewhere togethert and is like i don even know they go and read from the blog? k watever!

aniway k i am boiling le can't be bother to continue saying what is going on later...

bursting again!

2005-07-09T01:08:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just find tat is not worth treating my frens so good arh like u know buying stuffs for them is like u won't know if they realli treasure it...
even thought i know they are not that sort of pple.....
is like aiyah i realli dunno how to say cause if i don thrash it out i will died of keeping everything.
like what i say in the previous blog.. everything i am always the last to know..sometimes i realli have nothing to say to them.. nothing at all... and everyone seems to have alot of things to say.. they knew each other stuffs more than i am.. felt left out.
they went out without informing me... yea cause of some stupid reasons and like i say before that still say want to watch together.. i mean is like at least let me know right? i know i am very concern of such stuffs but to me that shows u bother to at least ask the person or let the person know...
wanting told me before don tink too much... yea i always think too much. i do and i know. i mean is like how come when i go out with one of them the one always rem to ask the rest along. but then when they go out then never ask me ? i presume.
ahh... i am bursting! i rather there are things i never knew then to find out after that....
sometimes i wonder are frens yea frens? what are they? just human being after all? not suitable to me! i am just a loner! lonely i am so lonelY! haha...
oh yea... the thing is xr still tell me to rent VCD to watch at someone else house cause i told her got alot of movie i miss cause no one wants to watch and i don want to watch alone. dumb
yea i just give a stupid laugh didn't bother to say what i want to say.
is like i would rather rent to watch alone then watch with a whole lot of people. then wat the point of having movie threate! obvious the atmosphere is different right? ya i am like a hypocrite talking behind people back but this kind of things where got confront people? as if they care about it...

.......

2005-07-07T22:28:00.000-07:00

studying mic now.
tomorrow is last paper together with nursing skills......
hoping i will past at least one of them. i not sure if i can do it. always wanted to study in the end i ended up playing with the com or watching tv
hmm.... wanted to go queensway, thought of buying the running shoes and roller skates and tennis ball also!
hoooray! haha....
ya but maybe no one free heh heh
guess its alright la go another time

blog blog blog!

2005-07-06T20:04:00.000-07:00

forget to talk about my psychology and sociology test.
tat one at least better than my anatomy la
cause i got study before the test, but i still think i am going to fail my FON and AAP! and guess what?
i am having the lecturer again. the worst thing is i haven even make myself known to the past chapters and the lect is teaching new chapters again. sometimes i just wonder i shall might as well give up and go ITE. i think it will be much more better than studying in poly. sigh.. still don understand what the purpoer of studying? to secure a better job in society? and the worst thing is what we are doing is not something we want to do!
then what the point in life? i don understand it!!!!!! i am going to have my MIC on fri and yet i have not even started it! haha.. i haf been falling asleep in class recently!
no mood to listen to teacher talking... her words seems to be telling me *go to slp, go to slp*
ah ha.... if ever she know about this she definelty goin to kill me!
stress ah! haiz... the thought of having exam seems to make me shiver! already there is like 17 chapters to study for common test than what about exam? 30 chapters? might as well ask me to died first? i think that is easier! and faster! i don wish to retain.
i ever thought of changing course to maybe chinese studies. but the same thing is there is thing to be memorise than how? seems like nothing is to my liking. don even know what i want in life? pointless and still searching the aim.
haiz... anyone to counsel me? haha.....
everyone have their own problems i guess! jia you ba! three yrs onli very fast it will past de! yea yea!

common test!

2005-07-06T19:40:00.000-07:00

boring boring boring
suppose to study for my nursing skills shit have to wear the damn uniform to school
going to throw my own face. ya i nkow i am not being very proud about my uniform la haha. but what to do! is white and the colour is very easily dirty sigh....
i am just wondering how come they cannot come up with other colours?
ya then for the clinical attachment! cannot do a thousands of thing. but i am looking forward towards my attachment! can learn new things i think..
just hope that those senior nurse doesn't do anything funny to us!
yes yes yes! last paper on fri! wohoo... happy sha la la la ! heh heh...
when i am realli happy having my holidays the others are preparing their common test!
oh ya i saw my inline skating president at the library!
haiz... don understand how come they don even say a hi to their memebers one! weird people! all right whatever! shall blog until here! might come and blog about my nursing skills common test! wish me good luck seh!

troublesome com!

2005-07-05T19:10:00.000-07:00

la la la
three more daes and my common test is gonna to vanish~looking forward to in line skating! can see presiden!
hmm... looking forward to tennis too.. so bored need to study for P and A hate it... ok la at least better than others haha....
bored bored bored. seems to getting less and less thing to blog nowadays!
yesterday just reformat my stupid com, irritating com always givinh me trouble! haiz....
need to mug again ahh.....

just blog for fun

2005-07-05T00:43:00.000-07:00

yoz yoz! finalli i am blogging..... heh heh this week is a saddening week i am having my common test. have been studying ya i sort of got study la but like never study like tat! k watever. sad sad sad. la la la... acting wu liao now. hmm.... i join in line skating wohoo.. the president hao shuai! i am going to fa hua chi again! forever i am ! haha.... hmm.... the stunts they do are so cool! my god! envy envy! *eyes brighten up* haiz like got nothing to say! sian le buai!

2005-06-15T20:16:00.000-07:00

feel like having a hair cut. just love getting new hairstyle, a fresher love. but i can't bear to leave my hair.
just went to read a fren friendster. and pheww.. somtimes i realli can't stand her and glad she know her ownselves at least.
sometimes i just felt like going straight to her face and say GET LOST!
i very agitated by her somtimes.
k watever i know i am not good either so i shouldn't critise others too much.
today i did something realli horrible. i am suppose to have a lect at 2pm but i never go. and instead told my fren to help me tap the card. eh.. feeling guilty now.
but heh heh... the lect was realling boring la. paiseh. this shall be the last time i am doing it. opps.
must be a good girl the next time. forgive me man!
wahahahaha.....
hmm.. still wondering if i should stay over for the chalet.
or maybe i should just go the BBQ. hmm...
damn. common test is like 2 wks away and i am still slacking here.
wanted to study hard but in the end i neber. always fogetting the promise i make to myself.
i am hopless. my god! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
save me save me!

unlucky day

2005-06-15T15:58:00.000-07:00

today is a damn unlukcy day. had a fall while running back home when it is raining. my knee was scratch.. the funniest thing is while walking home then the blood was flowing down the leg. this reminds me of miscarriage. hur hur hur.. then went out to eat with my parents and again it was raining. had to take out umbrella. got clip by the damn umbrellla... ahhh... idiotic. now reading the ANP book.. sianz..

second tennis trainig

2005-06-13T23:12:00.000-07:00

happy sha la la la
today tennis damn fun.. cause i get to see the guy again..
this time i know his name! his is called *** haha i still call moon or star. ok not funny
he a very nice person always pass the tennis ball to us when we finish using ours.. wahahaha.. happy sha la la la
suppose to have a secondary gathering suppose to be a chalet. but not very keen about. feel rather bored. anyway no one is staying overnight. so don even nkow go for what. if not will be the same old pple again. so boring. rather stay at home at least can finish my work.. and maybe if i am in the mood can study for a while. hmm... la la la
reading about cell now.. heh heh..

zui hou de le yuan

2005-06-12T13:06:00.000-07:00

finally their events is going to over. next one will be their concert. wondering if i still have a chance to buy their ticket. went to the autograph session on 10/6/2005. might be the last time seeing them. since ah di is going to rest. hmm... wish them all the best ba. heh heh... its rather pathetic cause many pple went. then in the end we went to cut other pple queue. as the kah yee very good with the security guard haha... so we can do that. all thank to her. reach home at around 11pm.. la la la

next one was yesterday. 933 bao chang hui! hooray. cool. F.I.R was the first band to come out to perform. theirs was great! their xian chang gong li damn good! saw faye so pretty... haha.. they sang around 5 songs. my god! if u miss it will regret. then the next was eh i can;t rem.. opps. but i know the last two was lin jun jie and ENERGY! yea energy sang the song i wanted to see... tian yu di! their dance was damn damn damn damn siock!!!! haha.. so damn nice...

hmm... today autograph session never go cause went two le.. hmm... should be ok la... they sign around one around le now. haa... should be able to finish ba i think.. good luck.. k also have to do my hw le haiz... hate studying...

fashionable

2005-06-09T20:59:00.000-07:00

pathetic..
i am always complaining for whole of my fren
oh well who doesn't? no one is "GOD" so they complain...
i just discover i haven find the goal in my life. that so sad. sometiems i am wondering why am i living in this world? to eat? to slp? to study just to get a dumb job? that so pathetic
if u tell me that is life?
i will say ITS IT NOT! i also dunno what i want. hey hey i saw a hair cutting and styling lesson felt like joining it. but is on a monday. how i wish i am someone who is a designer haha.. yeah fashion i love fashion! but that cost a bomb! who don't like to be fashionable!

stupid family

2005-06-09T20:52:00.000-07:00

a mixed feeling always occur in me
sometimes i find my parents very good! sometimes they are realli irritating to the core
something stupid happen today
i ask my mother to try to fried kway tiao for me cause i felt like eating. ya so guess what? she fail. i find very hopless... other mother can do why can't she? k i know i wasn't suppose to say that. so later i still take another plate to eat thinking that still she try and she told me be4 she doesn't knw how to do it..
then she cook another plate for herself and my father! so there is bean sprouts and i hate it.. k aniway it wasn't for me. then when i was eating my second plate i felt like puking.. cause is like the "kway tiao" was edible and taste like other kind of noodles but still it wasn't something which i want.. k so i still tried to eat it.. but with a rather horrible face. then my stupid father was like asking me aq thousands time i should try the second plate cause it will be nicer. i got realli piss of and shouted i don want it... then my mother dunno something wrong with her.. she starting to get piss off also. i can see that her eyes were swelling up with tears and red..

then my stupid father like acting damn idiot! i hate him for this damn habit! he always instuct pple to do things for him even like pouring one damn cup of water or a tissuse. he was asking my mother abuot it! ya k? my mother was eating half way! basket lor.. why can't he get it himself? can't he see pple is eating? pathetic! just one thing also cannot do himself... male chavunist (whatever the damn speling is). ya then my mother got really f*** up..she throw all the noddles away.

fuck la.. i am realli piss of this time. apologised for me being vulgar... can't be bother abt her anymore.. k i nkow partly was my fault also... never should i ask her to cook something which she dunno some more she try...

computer lab

2005-06-09T09:47:00.000-07:00

guess where i am now?
in the computer lab of ngee ann now.. oh ya i just rem that ah ma and stinray meet to eat breadfast!!
sad and i can't go with them! unfair! they get to eat outside food while me eating the school canteen food again! kinda of bored eating the same thing even thought there is like 4 canteen here. but the type of food they sell is like the same my god! even a 3 yrs old kid can name me the catogory!
boring boring ! but later going for nursing skills sso is rather ok! having a two hour break now! so borred!!!! 'hungry hungry! gonna to eat later! cause my frens still don feel like eating yet as they are not hungry haha..
the saddest thing is today lesson is until 6pm.. wanted to go and buy tennis racket! haiz...
i want to buy MP3..... nice leh! i might consider a purple colour one! woho... pink one also look nice! haha.... as if i got the money like tat. might might want to buy one when i come out and work!
suppose to chase after energy tomorrow... before the few days i was rather excited about it. but then now like feeling sian sian le .. maybe cause of the adrenaline haha.. ok i am just trying to act lame i know...
bio realli sucks althought sometimes it is rather interesting....sianz..... hate it
still miss sec school life alot... haiz.... sad sad sad!!

tennis training

2005-06-06T23:44:00.000-07:00

la la la
i am studying! AAP! sucks... hate it like hell.
the damn lecturer was teaching another three more new chapters where by i was realli listening what he was saying or i can't even rem it!
there is like a thousands of bones to be rem. kaoz!
ok i know i am complaning again! i am useless other than complaning gt nothing better to do.
then there goes the FON. even worst i was totally sleepy the whole lecturer lor. the lecuterer really sucks! the thing learn i mean is like ten yrs down the roll who will rem. my god!
i am like still revising my stupid chapter 2 now. reading thru it. haiz...

let talk about today tennis training.
very throw face. i can onli use these three words to say.
realli is very throw face! my god!
ahh................
the coach was hitting 10 balls then i am suppose to hit it back. i miss 2 and than got one erm hit like never hit lor. haiz..
i can't even catch the ball sigh... oh my! join already throw face! haha... then after that we were suppose to play at one corner.. so wanting and the rest of the pple playing.. since i dunno how to play so don want to throw face la haha.. so sat aside then sometimes help them to pick the ball. see i am so kind. i knw i am always so kind haha...
so after that was abuot the last game le..
before that there were a grps of guys sitting at the side of the court.
here comes the funny part. wanting hit back the ball and guess what?
it did not fly over to the court but then hit to the grp of guys! haha... i was laughing over there. its reall funny cause she is forver so clumsy... la la la ~!!
hmm.. going to buy a racket i gues.. gonna to waste money again!
boring wanted to slep but then still haven finish reading the chapter two of AAP. arhh..... hate bio~ n then why am i nursing! that a good question to ponder about!
count down to energy autograph session~ 4 days! ahh... ahdi... milk...kunda...shuwei
haha wanting send me the tian yu di MV! hoho not bad quite nice! moi love the song alot~ lalalala

nurse nurse

2005-06-05T13:49:00.000-07:00

was reading a book called "RICH DAD POOR DAD"
just make me realise that that a very interesting
its says that don let urself work for money~ let money work for u!
haiz.... boring!
ya we are like stuyding for 1/4 of our life just to get a good job and earn money! why must we study! its boring to study! i always wanted to fall asleep!
study study study! er xin! hate it!
for once i never wanted to be a nurse! and now i am enrol in the nursing course! haiz...
seriously i still don realli want to be a nurse! haiz...
just accept my fate!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2005-06-05T13:46:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS A SPECIAL DAY.
ANYONE HAD ANY IDEA WHY?
BECAUSE IS STINGRAY BIRTHDAY
HEH HEH IF U HAPPEN TO COME ACROSS THIS BLOG
HERE I AM! SINGING A SONG FOR U

JIAWEN:" HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU".

HAHA I FINISH SINGING THE SONG! JUST IMAGINE BA
OH YA HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY. U ARE OLDER BY A AGE! WHICH MEANS U CAN WATCH M18 SHOW IN ONE YEAR TIME! EXCITED? HAHA... I AM JUST CRAPPING AGAIN! LA LA LA !

ANIWAY.... MAY U EXCEL IN EVERYTHIG U DO! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HATE IT!

2005-06-05T13:40:00.000-07:00

damn damn damn
life really sucks for me
i am getting really and really irritated
i just can't seems to find the song i want, not even anywhere! argh... geting really irritated
life is boring for me. because i don have realli so called frens in my class. sigh......
if only i am back in rp! trying hard to study but in the end always get distracted by using the PC
radio and TV! my god! can't concentrate! felt sleepy! haiz....
i am persuading my self to study finish everything before i even go to ENERGy handshake session and autograph session
I am just hoping that my mother stop nagging on me! NEVER!
sister went to do CIP in vietnam! wondering when she is coming back! it like been a long time i neber see her
fathers' day is coming in like 2 weeks time? i bought a card for my dad. just thinking of something to buy for him.. haiz... must crack my brains! wohoo
waiting for holidays to come! and god damn! stupid common test is coming! i hate it! hate to study!

I HATE COMMON TEST! I HATE EXAMS! I HATE STUDYING!

sunday!

2005-06-04T01:10:00.000-07:00

heh heh studying my PAS
eh as usual nothing get into my head
went to meet ah ma in the morning. suppose to study. but then not even one hour i am already like dying le haha.. cause slept too late. sad tomorrow is sunday already
will have to go to school again on mon! hate it! haiz...
sian sian sian!

ENERGY! i love u!

2005-06-02T22:38:00.000-07:00

blogging again..
here i am...have been slacking for two days... and i am very guilty now. still chating on msn not studying
haha....
i am very sad...
cause ah di is leaving energy. he has to leave cause of his backache. which means left 3 person.
that is like so dumb. first toro leave then ah di leave. what is energy becoming! everything has change
sad! i am so sad!!! why does things have to turn this way! oh tell me why! energy energy energy
i love ah di
i love kunda
i love toro
i love shuwei
i love milk
haiz.... jia you ba energy! u will always be the energy in my heart!!! the 5 of them!!!

hao xiang ku!

2005-06-01T21:21:00.000-07:00

feeling now down..
no idea why. just feeling like crying somehow. without any reason! feel like shedding tears. i like the feeling when tears roll down the face.
i know i am crazy, but realli have no idea now.
i am still studying my AAP. stupid! still at chapter one! just can't memorise all the 11 systems!
wo hao xiang ku! hao xiang hao xiang ku!
haiz... don assume i am having PMS thanz! haha

toro toro is the best

2005-05-29T21:00:00.000-07:00

hate reading my god!
in poly must do alot of reading up ourselves
i still prefer to be spoon feed heh heh... k la must show that i am grow up already
sianz... sometimes i still wonder if nursing is somethign which i want to do?
there now ay to turn back now.
can't wait for tue to come. my little queen size bed is coming! can u imagine the feeling of sleeping in a queen size bed all alone! wohooo....
damn tired today. was helping mum to move the furniture around~ got the two cupboard out of my room actualli only one another one was shift to another corner and the bookshelves was taken out.
hmm..... have a new look in my room. wanted to buy a new table.. but need more money to change. haiz.... everything cause money in this world
toro came to singapore! saw him on PSC, he tied his hair up in a ponytail..ehh... look very gay haha... saw a hair pin at the side of the hair also! looks rather weird to me! but after all he is still toro! as shuai as ever!
oh ya. went to ebay website and saw a blue adidas jacket put up for sale! felt like buying from the person~ is damn nice! the one u all saw on my display pic! is blue!!! nice nice! but it cost 135! my god! i guses the price is still going up if many people bid for it! i love the colour a lot! and is the type of jacket which i like! if onli i own one like that! haiz... love it! so nice!
anyone kind enough to buy for me haha~
still trying to read the thick nursing book~ i find the first few pages always talk rot one! than still have to read! sad!
i am having monday blue now! going to have lessons tomorrow again! and that lecturer wanted us to write a rj for him everyweek. just don understand what the benefit of writing rj.
can't wait for the BBQ to come. i wonder if my mothyer allow me to stay overnight cause still have to go to school. i enjoy the gathering.
indeed. secondary friends are those who we will keep in touch with most of the time
i still find it difficult to find true frens in poly life. everyone seems to be ... not sure how to describe.
life still goes on as usual... take care everyone! we shall meet again in BBQ!

studying

2005-05-29T13:31:00.000-07:00

studying in progress now
module is microbiology and infection control
trying to get something inside my head, but always one ear in one ear out
haiz.. hate to memorise things!! hate it hate it! but no choice~ still have to study other modules later! listenig to songs at the same time.. haiz... boring~

night is the best time!

2005-05-29T01:18:00.000-07:00

just finish watching feng yun
nice show~ love ekin and arron kwok so damn shuai!
back to my study of microbiology and dunno wat infection lecturer notes
still can't get everything inside my head
boring.... haha i am too easily divert my attention
study one mintue than can't sit still want to move about!
heh heh...
listening to slyverster song... dao lou shi jian
if onli i can turn back time to secondary school....

went back to rp!

2005-05-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

went back to rp today. to see me frens there.
haiz....
felt left out. dunno what they talking about the whole day.
maybe suppose to felt tat why ba. since i am also not the school already.
then wanted to jio them to eat. some more i got mention before the day. some say can then the rest not sure. in the end those tat say can say cannot today. than all want to go home. sigh.
shouldn't have go. thought they can go out after that.. sad sad..
they wanted to eat actualli, but they like not very willing.. is cause i want to eat then they go and eat. so i decieded to go home instead. maybe i shall not go back again. nothing much to say also. keep rather quiet when with them....
frens are just a passer-by in ur life. guess that was true.
i still find it hard to find true frens in poly. sad sad.. i want to go back to west spring!!!!! sigh...
turn back the clock! sian... still can't find any real frens in np. sucks!!!!

just don understand why every course which i study got no seniors! in west spring is prioneer batch. nursing in np also like tat, even in biotech in rp also like tat ! KNS! me with seniors got no fate! haiz...

sianz!!!!

2005-05-26T22:24:00.000-07:00

listening to the song by singapore idol
*that what frens are for

reminds me of the life in west spring. even thought its some how sucks la
memory seems to flash back a bit, thought of frens at west spring
at least the frenship are real and truth
missing all my classmates in west spring haiz... if only i can turn back time.
suddenly feel like crying when i heard the song, thought of the time at the prom!
*and i never thought i feel this way..... glad i got the chance to say taht i do believe i love u.....
touch by the lyrics!

*keep smiling keep shining knowing u always can count on me....

WEST SPRING 4A04 rulezzz always!

haiz.. i never like to adapt to a new environment! never never and never! u always have to learnt to get to know new frens. i find tat tiring. whenever i get into a new school. the worst thing is not able to cope but how to know new frens and survive in that damn school for a couple of yrs. especially in poly. without frens will died faster! haiz... it is like haiz.. dunno how to say also! just veri sian to go into a new school!

2005-05-26T21:59:00.000-07:00

hmm.. did i ever mention here that my mother rent a room to her fren daughter.
yea it had been maybe more than a month since she stay here. from indo
something to complain here.
she doesn't like to off the light when she go out from the room or the toilet light also. then i always haf too off for her. take for today, even when she just went to my room to take something also forget to off the light! my god how forgetful can she be~ argh!! irritated!
another thing is she always drop alot of hair! after she bath, it is like you can see her dropping more than 10 strands of hair on the floor! the worst thing she is either she doesn't see or can't be bother about it~ she doesn't clear it or even bother to pick it up~
arghh!! internal bleedding~

did not went to school today! sick again! yes guess why? cause i never finish the course of my antibiotic! so the germs are now having a little riot in my body! oh my god~ can u see them holding flats and marching somewhere in my body!haha!
so i went to see the doc again~ he was nagging at me how come i never finish the course of med!
heh heh, paiseh arh i forget mah! then sometimes never eat how to take med! than lazy to buy also! the happiest thing is i get to skip my lecturer and tutorials!!! wahahaha! today is suppose to be the longest day! and i manage to skip it! but wait i have a MC so i am legal to do tat! heh heh don read this with envy eyes! thinking of tomorrow day make me happy heh heh cause is onli until two!

trying to read my lecturer notes now! is suppose to be an interesting module! yes and is the module i love the most! psychology and sociaology! heh heh. but then i am gonna to fall asleeping reading half way through it! talking about memory and stuffs! what sensory memory la! then still got short term memory! haiz yor so chim and the tb are like 5cm thick~ haiz.... ok la thoug is 5cm thick but is fro 3 yrs one! sian arh!

haiz.. i just realise that nursing is not something which i realli like a lot! but how? life is like tat! who ask me never study hard enought to get gd grades to get into the course i want! haiz... sian! still haven know any frens in my course yet! so is rather sian to go to school1 haiz... should blog until here! gonna to study for my notes again! haha! going to be a hardworking gurl from now one! but then i am still chating in the msn haha~

second day

2005-05-25T17:56:00.000-07:00

reach home at 4.30pm
counted as early or late? i am not sure
haha at least earlier than those staying farther away from np
heh heh... evil laughter
everyday can save bus fare! cool!
sian today lecturer damn boring, teach about the history of nursing. almost fall asleep in the theatre
haiz... kind of boring in np always alone when break time. haven had any realli counted as frens there yet
cause never go for the orientation so...dunno anyone there.
now begininig to wonder if tat one is realli what i want to study!
haiz... miss my frens in rp
ESPECIALLY WSSS!!! ah ma! xinrui! ailing! and everyone also!
if only can turn bad times
i feel so lonely in np haiz... no frens there life is tought! save me save me!
haiz.. thinking that i have to go np tomorrow make me want to puke! poly life suppose to be very fun but not realli to me leh
cause no frens there, even if have also different course! haiz...
life sucks!

first day at np!

2005-05-24T21:26:00.000-07:00

hey hey...
first day of school at np
all i can say is have to walk alot!
hmm... went to buy nursing books today. damn heavy some of them is like 5 to 6 cm thick and damn ex also! 60 to 70 plus
one little dictionary also can cause like 35 dollar!
my god! then have to carry like siao back home
sianz...
oh ya then today for nursing skills learnt how to"pull" the person from one side of the bed to another. haha veri fun. but i got my posture wrong. suppose to use the body energy not the hand. can't wait for other lessons to come by.
tomorrow have to wake up at 6.30 my god! so damn early! haiz... first lesson is lecturer i think
hmm.. i wonder what are they going to teach!
haiz.. gonna to slp soon
good night
shall post another time haha
long time never post already!
see ya!

outing!~

2005-05-14T10:54:00.000-07:00

yoz yoz yoz pple~!!!
just woke up, wahahahahaha..... planning how should I spend my sunday!
what a nice sunny sunday morning haha. sounds like i am writing a compo seh
so bored, dunno what i should do. Feel like going out but then have no plans yet. suppose to go play badminton but my whole body aching like hell. cause yesterday got badminton training. Then, the coach was teaching us dunno what thing like smash, then dunno dunno haha.
complicated stuff i should say, cause there is some which i can't do haha~
heh heh. than went to bugis to meet xrui, karen and the rest of the guys. but haf to wait for them for 15mins before they arrive. hmpf hmpf. so sat on the bus stop to wait for them haha.
the funniest thing is when lee leng they all walk past all neber see me. so funny. hmm.. we went to yoshinoya to have lunch. haha.. then we sat there and occupy the whole table. later went to shop for ysheng clothes. He bought two shirts from Rebirth. One 24.90 and another is 32.90 haha.
ah ma think the first one is nice but i think the second one is nicer haha. xrui says he want to change his appearance ah ha. maybe to attract girls in Poly sia. but his hair hor, if don change also no point changing the type of clothes he wear one la. hmm... went to take neoprint after that. But then haf to call them like a thousands time before they want to go! so pathetic! they are guys after all still need the girls to "beg" them to go my god! can't they be more... hm.. aha ma was very unhappy about this incident seh. In the end Ysheng still never take. haha, but yesterday thiam hee very on! ask him to take then take! haha! But some of them went home quite early then left me, xrui, karen, yilong, S0S ,ysheng and zhuxiang. took another train to raffles city haha just to have a sit and talk at starbucks! hmm.. the drink there damn ex my god! lalalal...
after that we went home. haha... fun day fun day! shall have another gathering again! hmm...

taking the package in three hours time

2005-05-13T12:38:00.000-07:00

hmm.. gonna to go to ngee ann and take the pacakge later. hooray i am in ngee ann. my dream school.
but then hor, must learn how to suit the new environment again. sad. must learn to get along with new frens sigh..
like very hard to get to know new frens now adays!
going to blk 1 level 7 later haha... rather worried now. dunno why also. shall blog again later.

leaving rp soon

2005-05-13T00:17:00.000-07:00

i felt very sad. leaving rp. i am suppose to happy cause i am leaving tat funny teaching method school , whereby i don even learn anything!
but the thought of leaving my frens make me very very very very very upset. i dunno why also. even thought we know each other for three weeks.
get to make some frens, maybe can say good frens ba, haha always stay back after school to do RJ together.
we even call oursleves the badminton gang haha. but i will be leaving soon. leaving them. this really saddens me.
i dunno why i haf tis strong feeling. is like i know i am going to miss alot of fun with them.
it is like i find poly rather hard to find real friends ba. so i really treasure the frens i find now. even thought i am rather bad-tempered to them haha. sure will change one. haiz..

To siock hwa, liza, jasmine, deng shan and jessica:
three cheers for the badminton gang. i know that when i leave rp i will still regard u all as my forever frens! really will miss u all when i am gone! remember all the fun we had during class, in the toilet (haha toilet gang) and buying food too. I will remember the various animals we name ourselves and the chat we had in class also. when the facilitator is teaching. walking to red hill mrt together, worrying about persentation and stuffs. i will remember u all always and never forget, haha, especially jasmine face red when people hug her, jessica the bladder girl aka white panda, siock hwa as miss malaysia , liza haha always eating the slowest, expect for 11 of may eat the fastest and last but not least deng shan the eldest in the badminton gang. miss u guys! i am sure i will! even thought we merely know one another for three weeks!

To Candy:
Hmm... Even thought we know each other for only a short period of time, but we seems to know each other haha and our character is very alike. haha hard to find someone who felt everything the same and sometimes think the same also. I remember we know each other from the orientation. ITs a good thing knowing you, very happy about that. Even thought i am going ngee ann soon, but i know i will never forget you too! thanz for helping me buy the thumb drive! get in contact always!

2005-05-12T20:00:00.000-07:00

just went to read ah ma's blog
ya i cried finish reading it.
i dunno why got this feeling
i realised that i am not worth her fren after all. I am not a gd fren after all. I dunno.

Karen, if u are reading this, i know i am wrong for flaring up my temper with u. But sometimes, i really dunno why when u and them organise something, i must be the last one among the four to know. i have the feeling of being unimportant. i mean i really can't help to feel this way. I tried many times to tell myself is just nothing, we are still the best of frens. But i still have the feeling that i don belong there.

I didn't know u really felt this way, fearing to talk to me. i didn't know how to maintain this friendship also. But i still wish we are the best of frens. still want to apologised for the incident. take care.

nursing course! i got it!

2005-05-12T18:53:00.000-07:00

hoorayy...
got the admisiion into NGEE ANN.
my dream school. so near my house also. ah ha. but the saddest thing is i have to leave my frens in rp. but, i am not sure if i make my decision correctly. Cause i am taking Nursing course. Wish me gd luck every1. I really hope i did not make the wrong decision. I must perform well in my studies from now on!.

sick sick sick

2005-05-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

in schoool now, reach at 7.50am today. heh heh, today i am the first to come to class again. good student like me go to school early seh. yesterday was watching "hao se er ren zu". saw this girl which really look like a guy, damn cool, i like, haha almost fall in love with her. oh no, me going to be a lesbian soon (just joking). saw yu le bai fen bai, saw xiao zhu dancing, make me want to learn dance also, but like no time to join, just b adminton already got three training a week. today haf to run sia. hate physical training, n i am really sick now. having a flu, sore throat and cough. how to run like tis??? sigh... but i am not sure whether i am allow to skip also. cause today first training leh.. then thur also haf. pathetic. hate it. ahh... should join something else one ah ha.... maybe i might not want to go for today training seh. cause really sick until want to die already. damn irritated. stupid flu. dunno how come i will become sick. ahhh....

HATE RP ALWAYS

2005-05-09T20:16:00.000-07:00

ahhhh...... damn facilitators.can't they have better things to say??? always ask me to talk and raise more question in class. nothing better to do. never give me at least a A- be4. dunno come to school for what, feel so depressed when i see the grades. not C than B. ahh.... might as well don come to school better. don't even know come for what? waste my time only, sad sad.. in school now, going to have lesson like in 20 mins time, reach school damn early today haha.. the class so quiet only me alone inside. love tis quiet and peaceful class. no one except me. hooray. lalalalala...... damn sianz arh.... hate this stupid RP.

2005-05-08T12:17:00.000-07:00

went to see ailing blog! then saw a link from her blog. it is a website about how the rabbits were being use for experimental use and kill as for food. i just don understand why they must eat this kind of things. It is like there are much more other thing for us to choice right? just don understand humans, expecially those pple from hongkongs and china! all are no brain peas! stupid brain, dunno how they think! eat dogs, eat rabbits, eat snakes , monkey. the worst thing is they don even treat them properly before killing them, bastard human beings. the world cruest animals is not anything but us, yes the humans.! they can think of anything to torture the animals! that day i was reading the SPCA magazine. came upon this cat which its neck was being tied by some rubber bands! curse the person who did it, got bang by a car then fly 10km away. then died. with all the intestine and stuff come out! ass. hope the person got kidnap and get torture!! i really wonder how their parents teach them! no brain, the faster they died the better! just dunno how the animals ever irritate in anyway. ASS!!!! let pray that those who torture the animals died in one day times. yes died died died! or get torture the same way they torture the animals! if let me see what they do... they will sure get it from me!!! i will tied a rubber band around their neck also!!! sterilise them, let them expreience the pain..... bastards!!!! stupid children. normally is children who do that.... stupid children. sometimes, i really wonder why can't the scientist use human to do experience instead? it is easier right? more accurate. some more they can complain mah got mouth! or else user their own self to do also can. do on one another. assholes. hate scientists!!!! never spare a thought for the animals. don they know they haf feelings too? pea brain! dunno study so much for what? the thing is get contracted with AIDs then died wahahahaha. i really wonder why they are so many disaters causing so many dead. maybe this is to punish those people who dunno how to treasure life? like those of a animals! it is still a life!!! they haf feelings too!!!!!!!!! stupid people. castrate the guys who torture them!! hahahah... for girls... disfigure them wahahahaha...... let them understand the pain the animals are expriencing . they deserve it!!!

2005-05-08T11:57:00.000-07:00

hey hey. went to park mall with moi family yesterday. woosh... long journey there sia. went there to buy a wallet!! Renoma!!!! yes yes yes!!! seee 5 to 7 times finally can buy heh heh, cause mother got the voucher seh, then not so ex so can buy. finally. very happy. haha admiring at my new wallet every now and then! hoho.... but haf to come back very soon cause sister friend brining things over. or else able to shop some more. went to see ebase clothse. very nice and fashionable. but the price also beri ex. sigh..... sad tomorrow got school again! my god!!!!!!!!!! ahh... nvm shall tolerate just 3 yrs. time past very quickly (trying to do some self-console).

crazy me...

2005-05-06T22:37:00.000-07:00

i "fan lian" with everyone. i dunno what wrong with me. i always want to find fault with people. then after than feel sad about it. something is realli wrong with me. might need to hide myself in the room. and think what wrongs with me ? what i really want? life really sucks for me. envy those who are in a relationship be4. sigh. why am i so hopless??? fate is just like tat. the person u like don like u, but the person u don like, like you. why things always turn out like this in everyone life? can't things turn out in a better way? i know i should not take frens for granted, cause one day they might get tired of me and leave me. ha, i expected it already. very hard to change. must cool down and speak be4 i think. stupid brain. but i am so straightforward. what u want me to do? take it or leave it. i am the way i am.

zai zai guy

2005-05-06T22:19:00.000-07:00

saw the guy again today, third time already. first time wear brown, second time wear light blue, third time wear white. heh heh. hope to see him again. though he is a bit girly cause the hair rather long. ah ha..

stoopid team

2005-05-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

damn boring today!!! again do nothing... cause don have the programme again! of all the team i have realli dislike my this thur teamm!!! they like not cooperate one. haiz... all do their own stuffs then i feel like a idiot there doing nothing cause i don have the programme. i start feeling that i hate everyone now. i hate everything. sometimes, i feel that i don have any friends. not even one at all. i feel lonely at times and no one is there for me. friends??? what the hell is this term??? seems so familiar and seems so strange sometimes. wondering if i ever associate with this word. they seems so fake at times and seems so real sometimes. seems to care alot for you, but sometimes like can't be bother with you. i know i doesnt make a good fren, so its ok for them to leave me knowing my temper. let me be alone..... don pin too much hope of them.
i dunno what wrong with me? everything to me like i not happy with them. i can't tolertae anything, when anything is not in my way, i get irritated. sometimes, i purposely find fault with friends, quarrel and do watever. i also dunno why i behave this way, sometimes when i hear some songs i just cry and sometimes just irritated. what wrong with me? pathetic me!!! serves me right for no one to bother with... sigh....

oh ya, i have decided to join kayaking, badminton and one more something to do with style one.

basic scienvce

2005-05-05T08:19:00.000-07:00

yucks yesterday module was about communication. yea and the name is "are u listening?" i find it rather boring seh. must act somemore so idiot. the worst thing is we still have to find what personality of animals those kind of thingy. sianzzz.. sure get an C again! i realli dislike her lesson, cause always got nothing to say, ya then i will sure get a stupid C for hers!!!! yucks!!! but happy sia! today one is basic science but NOT biology!! i think is about pressure heh heh!!! i still quite like the teacher. today got cca booth day. wonder what cca i want to join! still dunno if i want to join the ALC thinggy.....

sianzzzzz

2005-05-02T13:06:00.000-07:00

in school now. if only i am in ngee ann or sp , will i be happier. haiz... dunno why i am here. came to school dragging my feet here again. so damn boring. can take 15mins to walk to the campus . champion sia. on my way taking bus, there was this guy who let me go on the bus first. gentleman. oh ya, then i was walking to school and saw a girl talking to her fren saying that she love the school and love going to the school also. haha.. makes me ponder for a few secs. i hate it like hell and she love it so much haiz.... then the poster was mention that tis guy came to the school cause what? ya because after seeing after what ro achieve. yea like real, as if i see anything that they achieve!!! stupid school! wanting ever told me to like the school or i will stuffer here. ya i know. i am trying very hard also but as if i can like tis school cause it realli sucks! i find that i can't get along with my class mates. got nothing to talk to them haiz... i want to change class. change to somewhere where i can fit in. i felt like a idiot here. the pple here too outgoing until dunno what to say! i still can't accept the teaching met later. mplainhod! it sucks! sigh. complain later. bye bye!

shopping is what i love the most

2005-04-30T14:54:00.000-07:00

just woke up. haven even brush my teeth yet..eww.. that might be ur first reaction haha.. anyway, slept at 1 or 2 plus yesterday. still felt very tired now. went to bugis to shop with ah ma and xrui. be4 tat went to eat at bugis cafe. thought it might be a gd recommandation. cause i went wif wanting be4.. ta da... it turn out to be damn pathetic . the food was serve damn slow, other pple who order already eat and left. only us the three idiots still continue waiting. finally went to ask them about the food. then it was serve. so xrui was quite irritated haha... she purposely speak loudly for them to hear haha... oh ya we also wrote some comments on the paper for them to see... haha.... later kanna curse by them... hmm...so next we went to bugis village to shop.. walk round and round the place. me and ah ma bought clothes... around 6pm went to jurong point. was walking half way there when xrui and ah ma was talking something...didn't really listen to them la. but heard xrui tell ah ma if ailing know we are together than never call her along how will she feel? yea... so i was pondering about something la.. hm...this reminds me of the egg incident... i mean it is like they can be so concer about her feeling then what about the egg incident? don they even thought of mine also? sometimes i don even know what does true friends means.... maybe on the surface we look as if we are.. might deep inside maybe is not. aniway, is just like tis... doesn't matter! playing energy song now but dunno why the "base" of the song sounds so funny.. it is like very loud wonder what have i press... haha... sian, wanted to go out actually but then no one is free to entertain me. so have to stay at home to pack up my things. felt like goin to bugis again. like to shop there, cause the stalls are one by one and the clothes there are trendy. if got money sure can go there everyday... heh heh. something which i wanted to do the most is to go to the sea and shout!!! felt very tight at the chest there. dunno why? maybe have something to let out, but dunno who to say. until now i stil don like poly life. i dunno izzit i am having "bian jian" to the school or i am just plain idiotic. maybe cause i can't realli click my classmates. got nothing to say to them. actualli i wanted to be outgoing.. ya but like tat i am acting. rather be myself. cause i am like this. the saddest thing don even have a good fren in class. now i am trying very hard not to complain about others infront of other classmates. dunno maybe want to be a neutral person in class. incase i get into any trouble if anyone hears what i say about him or her. just hope i can pass my poly life peacefully. maybe must learn to love my class. ok la, they are not as bad as what i say. but dunno how to describe them. hmm... sianzz. sometimes i always wonder what is the definition of friends? gd frens? someone u can count onto? believe them? hmm.. its something to ponder about. if u treat the ur fren gd will the person do that to you also? just suddenly thought of this things. nothing serious though.

2005-04-29T15:30:00.000-07:00

BORING

WEATHER IS SO HOT

SAVE ME

NOTHING TO DO

BORING

MY GOD...

SIGH

went out

2005-04-29T09:41:00.000-07:00

just woke up, haven even brush my teeth yet. felt like blogging so i just went on net to blog. heh heh. meeting ah ma in one and a half hour time. yes, then i can go and register for kick boxing horray. yesterday, went out with my fren candy. we both buy two t-shirts fromm ice lemon tea. cheap cheap cause its only 5 dollar for one.then before that we went blue to buy a "wristband" those with a button to put it on one. looks very cool and nice. oh ya we went to take neoprint too. heh heh, the first one was kanna spoilt by me cause we actually wanted to decorate then i can't read jap words so accidentally press ok i think, in the end it printed out sad. haha there goes our first attempt. so we went to take the second one.. it was more successful except that i can't decorate cause something wrong with the stupid pen.. hmpf.... yesterday class was the most suuckish one. hate it, the guys in my class are damn sacastics and irritating.. ask stupid question and nonsense... yaya whole all they know is say fuck... don they have betting words to say... feel like changing class..

10th day of school

2005-04-28T14:30:00.000-07:00

yea is the 10th day of school. damn happy... can go out tomorrow horray... anyway, reach school that early also damn boring, like what i say always do the same thing everyday, sure got nothing special will happen. hate this school.... so far some more.... wonder will any things changes if the location is change to woodland.. miss ailing, xinrui and karen and everyone also. still like sec life the best sigh.... going to register kick boxing with xr tomorrow.yea. gonna to see them already so happy! yea then maybe going to eat also. hmm... today lesson rather wu liao dunno do something call problem solving sian.. duno even... know what we are suppose to do sian... lame leh..... my god!!! now they are arguing in class over the question haha so funny.... hmm.... what how they do this do that.. whether do this got that... complicated!! then later going with my fren to do the bus card. idiotic haven get mine yet cause dunno they lost mine or either they haven do yet. sigh....

grade

2005-04-27T10:42:00.000-07:00

boring, quite a few days never post. stupid com at home got some problem so cannnot post. so unlucky. knock my head against the aircon so pain and there is some blood. i just discovered that is very difficult to find a good friend or so called a true friend in poly. i just had this feeling. is like my friend ask me what happened to my head then she just see see and turn her head away. yea, but i guess pple in sec school doesn't only react that way right? funny. anyway, i hate today group is like the pple doesn't cooperate nt as in those kind of cooperate .. i also dunno how to say. is like they are working on the project however, those who dunno or forget abt how to do the thing just sit there, than me the idiot do not have the programme also dunno what i can do. is like so pathetic. even thought in the same class but felt like strangers. all they do is always insult pple. yea even thought they meant to be joking but they can't do tat all the time right? i hate rp. if only i am in np. and my stupid grades i have neber get an A be4 lor. all i have is B and C. sigh... how am i going to promote to yr 2 . hate the teaching method its really sucks!

my class!

2005-04-25T21:59:00.000-07:00

ya it is the sixth day of school. having the same module again. enterprise skills. kinda of learn something but the bad things is we are not given the teacher presentation. i only remember her saying there are four types of memerbers in the team. haha and then the different between a group and team. ya that all. i wasn't really paying attentino to the teacher. ya cause finally my laptop is ready to be use. three cheers!! anyway, i don really like to be in my class even though it is a funny class la. the thing i hate is there are smoker in my class. ya they smoke haha cause they are older than 18 la. nothing to say. there is one girl in my class who smokes also. i just don understand what so good about smoking. harm the pple around u and urself than waste money also. dumb. my class.. full of funny people and outgoing. heh heh but i am not one of them. aniway, they are rather vuglur ya the guys. always fuck here fuck there. hmm... dunno wat to say. can't they be more civilised. another thing, during presentation some guys like to "suan" their friend when they present. ya this create more fun but then also waste alot of time. dumb. anyway, sian have to go to school again tomorrow.!

girls love shopping, we all know that!

2005-04-24T11:30:00.000-07:00

went bugis with miss lim. heh heh.. so fun. spend alot of money. heh heh finally buy mother's day present. i gave her a bag. wanted to buy a diamond necklace instead but then she say is not pracital and she doesn't wear it. so i "da xiao de nian tou". the best thing i buy today is the pants. haha cost me a bomb but it looked cool. me and wanting each bought one. and it is from S&K!!! F4!!! me and her also bought a same jacket!! looks very cool also. oh ya then i bought another shirt which is those kind of crumpled one... hehe looks cool to me also. haha very into fashion nowadays! heh heh... still have a belt i wanted to buy... if only i had a million i will buy all the things in this world my god! heh heh... girls love to shop. what to say! shall buy some more pants haha i wanted a purple colour one. but still can't find one. sad!

sian tomorrow still got school. hate school. if only NP will call me up and accept me as a nurse student. they put me in the waiting list but the chance is so slim. sad. dunno wat to do. sian... i dunno if i can still survivie in RP for another day. everyday have to do the same thing. presentation, quiz, rj... if only i can fly up into the sky and avoid all these things. why must i face reality. anyone tell me? life sucks because i have to go Rp. everyday go school must worried abuot grades just because i don crap in class! is so stupid! they are forcing those people to talk! might as open a drama class! dunno everyday present for wat!!! still want us to have at least 40 CE points for the three years! why can't the principal do something that is useful! I WANT TO CHANGE SCHOOL! SAD! I WANT TO CHANGE MY FATE! I WANT TO GO TO NP! I HATE RP! I DON LIKE THE TEACHING METHOD! ANYONE CAN SAVE ME! I HATE PRESENTATION! I HATE RJ! I HATE QUIZ!

PATHETIC

2005-04-22T22:29:00.000-07:00

ONE MORE THINGS TO COMPLAIN... ITS REALLY DAMN STUPID. U HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY TO ACT AS IF U ARE VERY ENTHU IN LEARNING THAT STUPID PATHETIC MODULE. IF NOT U WILL NOT SCORE WELL IN UR GRADE. EVERYDAY IS JUST ACT ACT ACT!!! SO DAMN STUPID! I STILL CANT ACCEPT THE LAME TEACHING METHOD! DUNNO WAT THE PRINCIPAL IS THINKING ABOUT!!! FEEL LIKE KNOCKING SOME SENSE INTO HIM! SOME HOW SOME DAY I MIGHT GET INTO MEDIACORP WITH ALL THIS ACTING PRACTICE! ARGHH....

why am i in rp???

2005-04-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

heh heh.. is the same old thing gonna to complain about Rp again. the teaching method hor wat lao i really buy tahan.. is like so dumb lor. really like never learnt thing everyday. ya all i know is team work is the best. guess wat i got 2 C for my two module is like so stupid lor. have to write wat reflection jorunal then all the question they ask is like so difficult to answer one kaoz. is like all funny funny qusetion. example. what can u contribute to help ur team learn better? rubbish right?oh ya then the stupid leo always break down is like my god so irritating.. want to use IT then settle the things and do it in a proper way la... kaoz...

2005-04-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

life really sucks.. i am starting to hate rp now.. the school really sucks. hate it. just don understand how come there is school withou lecturer and tutoriols. sad. went to np today and tried to apply for the nursing course. guess wat? they told me the chance of going there is very small. sigh.. can't they just take it a few more students. they will have more money also mah. make me suffer there. can died! just the though of presentating everday can make me puke. sianzz... need to travel so long to school. waste money also. how i wish i am in np now. NP rulezzz... haha i must recommand everyone don go rp cause the teaching method really is a waste of time. ask us to do everything online in the end the leo is always down. hopeless!!! then must always pretend to be very enthu in what u are doing is like so pathetic. my god. y must life be like this!!!! anyone tell me!!! i want lecturer i want tutorial!!!!

something i need to remember

2005-04-19T03:50:00.000-07:00

haha just post it here incase i forget about it...

Thank you for your participation.See you @ Digital Workflow: Capture, Process, Output, by Mr. John Cosgrove, PHOTOi Editor. Venue: Republic Polytechnic, Annex HallDate: 22nd April 2005, FridayTime: 4.00pm – 4.30pm